Did I give Up?

0138 a.m. - 13 March 2015

there are things I want, God did not give.   

there are things that I want justice, I do not get. 

I am also vilified,
nor to beg forgiveness and redemption wrong.  

I am also vilified, nor to beg forgiveness cleanse the wrong impression. Obviously I'm not a people close to you, only able to leave a message "Be patient, be assured." But do not think I do not understand, what you are going through. Because of the size of the test that I encounter. But I was still patient and trust. Keep trying and trying.

am I give up?
I am familiar with these words, because, I've used it too.

"God hates me"
"God doesn't love me"

But, I do know that --
God did not promise that life would be easy, but He did promise to always be beside you, in every step of your life. 

But, I do know that --
This life is full with beautiful things that I know you can achieve it as long as you stay and keep trying.

stay safe.

wiltedrose.s xx

Trust

0205 - 17 November 2012

A trust to God
A trust to human
A trust to yourself

Trust to God,
is about believing what He gives and what we gets, - is good, suits for us
is about trusting our fate has been written carefully by Him
is about moving on in life as what He told us to do so.

Trust to God,
to be more patience in walking towards Him
to be more cautious about doing sins and bad things

to accept and be calm when life doesn't go the way we expected it to be.
to believe that He does not sent all the pain and tests without knowing our limits.

to believe in Him as our only God.


and 

we can't break the trust we get,
because it will hurt us more, -- being carelessly in pain because we start to complaint our fate.

I am complaining my fate, everyday.
but I am believing Him.
In other way, people start to judge me because they see me lacking in faith.

I am trying to rebuilt, my trust, my beliefs.
I know its hard when everything seems to collapse
and it make my trust towards Him, fading.

But I know, the reasons, the aim that He sent.
But I don't know how to put it in a phrase that I can understand.

then, this came,

"If Allah knows [any] good in your hearts, He will give you [something] better than what was taken from you, and He will forgive you; and Allah is Forgiving and Merciful." {Al-Anfal 8:70}

when you trust Him for all His reasons,
you find a way to believe in yourself.
slowly but surely. -- just believe.
even I don'y know how I will moving on in my life, but that's the only choice I have.

patience and trust.

wiltedrose.s xx

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Trust is what made us more stronger. {Roses : 15}

A Journey

0950 - 30 Oktober 2012

First step in life
is about knowing God
to learn and love everything about Him, unconditionally.

Because that's what the religion says,
He deserves all the love from His mankind, creatures.

He made us to worship Him more than anything else.


and
He gives us all His tests to see how patience we are.

I am made to going through all this pain
I am made to be strong as we all strive for the most peaceful ending, 
-- in Heaven.

I am tired all the time
to going through the same pain 
to endure everything with His love

I am confused, sometimes
where does all these strength come from?

because I was tired, in pain, dying.
because to achieve something big -- heaven --

through this journey, 
I need to face all the darkest path.
I need to fulfill all need for the tests.
I need to be strong.

This journey ain't easy,
it is the hardest path in life
from the choices I've been making.

I am hurting in all the way to this journey,
My mind keeps  saying all the negative sides,
"you will not survive"
"you will end up in Hell"
"you are the most useless person"
"God doesn't loves you"


just stop. for a while, please.

people's judgement make it more worse,
people's ignorance make it more painful,
and I am giving up.

I was told to just get over it,
but they don't know how hard it is.

words may easy to burst it out,
but the feelings inside, -- you don't even want to think about it.

this journey from a slave to her God,
ain't that easy,
she knows that God loves her, -- that's where the tests, the pain, the challenges come from
yet she is giving up.

because she don't know if she would make it --
to Heaven.

I have to go on, after all.
may God ease the burden I am going through.
even sometimes, I know, I don't deserves any kindness.

please let me, pass this journey
to my God,
Allah s.w.t.

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Moga bertemu kelak di Syurga-Nya.

wiltedrose.s xx

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Even when life is moving in reverse, try to find a way in this journey, to meet the right path, safely. {Roses:10}