A Journey

0950 - 30 Oktober 2012

First step in life
is about knowing God
to learn and love everything about Him, unconditionally.

Because that's what the religion says,
He deserves all the love from His mankind, creatures.

He made us to worship Him more than anything else.


and
He gives us all His tests to see how patience we are.

I am made to going through all this pain
I am made to be strong as we all strive for the most peaceful ending, 
-- in Heaven.

I am tired all the time
to going through the same pain 
to endure everything with His love

I am confused, sometimes
where does all these strength come from?

because I was tired, in pain, dying.
because to achieve something big -- heaven --

through this journey, 
I need to face all the darkest path.
I need to fulfill all need for the tests.
I need to be strong.

This journey ain't easy,
it is the hardest path in life
from the choices I've been making.

I am hurting in all the way to this journey,
My mind keeps  saying all the negative sides,
"you will not survive"
"you will end up in Hell"
"you are the most useless person"
"God doesn't loves you"


just stop. for a while, please.

people's judgement make it more worse,
people's ignorance make it more painful,
and I am giving up.

I was told to just get over it,
but they don't know how hard it is.

words may easy to burst it out,
but the feelings inside, -- you don't even want to think about it.

this journey from a slave to her God,
ain't that easy,
she knows that God loves her, -- that's where the tests, the pain, the challenges come from
yet she is giving up.

because she don't know if she would make it --
to Heaven.

I have to go on, after all.
may God ease the burden I am going through.
even sometimes, I know, I don't deserves any kindness.

please let me, pass this journey
to my God,
Allah s.w.t.

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Moga bertemu kelak di Syurga-Nya.

wiltedrose.s xx

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Even when life is moving in reverse, try to find a way in this journey, to meet the right path, safely. {Roses:10}