The Secret Hidden Within




It's been a while..


I don't know why I'm here again. Maybe because I feel like I need a place to write something. 
About everything -- that I could never tell people in person.

It's been quite hard for me.
to stay as who I am.
to be what I actually want to.
to exactly understand what I am.
to control myself.

I'm sorry,
that I've been so bad, insane and desperately dying.


it's been years that I had a time like this,
and to get people really understand about what is really going on in my head,
it's not that fucking easy.

IT'S FUCKING HARD 
because they don't want to accept it.
they accuse me for it.
they think that I made all this up.

but, hey.. what's the point for that?

I just need some respect and everyone to understand.



that's all.


wiltedrose.s xx

Nothing matter.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim







Every day I wake up with a dream 
to be happy and 
smile in every way


Everyday I wake up with a dream
to make people happy and
make them smile in every way


Even sometimes
I should harbored all my feelings
from everyone and even from -- my pets


They don't have to know
They don't have to notice
my feelings everyday


because they don't want to
and not even care


--
because between me and you
nothing matters anymore

You were my world.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim



I was your dream, you were my world

But now everything ruined


I'll take all our memories,
and I'll never look back.


Whenever my mind flashback all memories,
I'll scream out up on the mountain.

Hope I'll never remember it again.

--

I'll burn the past,
and you'll never know.


Whenever you passing by,
I'll run away further till the end of the world.

Hope I'll never see you anymore.




---

Cause I'll leave everything about us behind.
you were my past.